为了好好的利用THE LAST MOMENT,我们进行了详细周密的计划安排.17号在GARDEN CITY的MALL里逛了一天,最后一次体验SHOPPING的日子,直到花光身上所有银子.18号狠狠补了一大觉,一直睡到12:30PM,中间曾经梦游般跟MITZ告别,在告别HUG时候,因激动想从床上起来而踩了他...郁闷.起床后去GYM跟COACH SIGGY SAY BYE, 再后来就是磨蹭的KENNY同学CHECK OUT,然后CHECK IN OUR BUILDING.晚餐在FLUSHING,又最后一次狠狠的吃了顿越南FO,依然在我们的"据点".趁机在FLUSHING买个CASE,东西好象真的不够装了.拖着箱子走在FLUSHING MAIN STREET,嚣张的哼着"GOING HOME",估计羡煞那群背井离乡群居在FLUSHING的中国人...半夜去泡bar，在SCARLET和KENNY劝说下，我们都有点喝高。第一个club里面居然放着西班牙音乐，超级难踩点。那双HIGH HEEL SHOES ALMOST KILLED ME。就是穿着那样的鞋，化着从来没试过的heavy make-up，尽管从来没去过club，也不会跳，但是在酒精的作用下，身体变的轻盈而有韵律感.我们5个人一起在拥挤的DANCING POOL里乱舞.我也已经微醺，摇晃的舞步，震耳欲聋的音乐，交错的光影，发热的头脑，后来大家觉得MUSIC很无聊，觉得需要换一家有COOL BLACK MUSIC的BAR，于是走掉。半路上为了一会放的更开感觉更妙每个人又都开始灌酒。慢慢觉得一切都在梦里，眼前也开始模糊，不知是BIMER还是酒精带来轻飘飘的感觉就像要飞。头一次全员要求把音乐开的震天响，等不及的大家都开始在车里跳舞。我跟着音乐又唱又跳耍累后，好象是睡了一小觉，醒来觉得清醒大半，顿觉不爽。为了更好的为下一BAR做准备，我又喝了2 SHOTS. 情形从那时开始失去控制。我觉得自己醉掉了，就下车换换空气，却连站都站不直.后来就开始胡言乱语，真的想到什么就说出什么，大脑都控制不住嘴巴，自己也知道自己在乱干什么，就是控制不住身体。要飞起来了，我站起来把脑袋伸到天窗外尽情感受夜风的心情，用醉熏熏的英语说：the feeling is sooooo gooooood 呵呵, 还嘲笑自己:喝醉了也会说英语啊。到了另一个BAR的时候，年龄限制为21，我还醉熏熏的喊我21了！！！我就差几天就21了！！！！还记得SAYA安慰我，好好好，你21了，你明天就21了！！清楚的以为她在忽悠我就像忽悠醉酒的人。其他人也都一样，说什么做什么都没人BLAME U，所以说，醉酒的感觉真好，记得把JASON一顿猛捶，把KENNY头发压扁，SCARLET在身边一直安抚我，SAYA一直在说GINA你喝醉以后真CUTE。什么都记得，一切都清醒，就是身体和头脑过不去，又没有人责怪自己。最爽的一天。喝高了就开始兴奋。情绪特别波动，不能控制自己大笑，而且是NO REASON的笑，后来就号啕大哭，说些什么要离别的话。下车上个厕所，回都回不到车里，走到一个劲左右摇摆，又一直想往地上跪（现在看浑身都是伤）KENNY试图把我抱到车上，结果这个MUSULE 男 只抱了一半的路，JASON TOOK OVER，结果只抱了两秒。哈哈。我笑的肚子都疼了，喝醉了也知道悲哀啊。连滚带趴被搀扶的走到车里，开始说胡话，耍酒风，没想到我酒风这么不好。回了宿舍，JASON在HALLWAY扶着KENNY肩膀哭，哈哈，我趁酒醉一个劲指着JASON嘲笑他是LITO BITCH.回到宿舍,痛哭着说多希望不曾参加这个项目，不曾认识你们，也就不会这么痛苦..... 太兴奋起来两次去看JASON，还问SCALET我们在干吗啊BACK AND FORTH的. 第一次喝醉也献给了NEW YORK，如果用情不深，又怎么会有眼泪划过……迷迷糊糊就这样睡着了    

    真真正正地DONE了所有恼人的FIANL和每科至少20页的PROJECT. 前几天就有好几个人DONE了FINAL,一起HANG OUT 的时候还会偶尔见他们小伤感. 我被数种作业考试缠身,选最多的课,付最多的努力,剩最少的时间,得最少的分.压根没心思伤感,连BLOG都荒废了.好象我真是那种脑袋一根筋的人,不能同时思考两样事情. 现在,终于终于,让所有的一切都滚蛋吧.

    可是为什么,这种感觉不像想象中会有的那般兴奋雀跃,却像抽空了般的迷茫不知所措?

    前天去送SUMMER去CANADA,遇到SAYA室友JENIFER正跟SUMMER道别.还在纳闷自己怎么麻木到了一点感觉都没有的地步,还在轻松的跟JENIFER说,我会去SHANDONG看你. JENIFER说,我要去GUANGDONG的啊.心里突然凉了起来. 也许现在还在眼前一起聊天HANG OUT的朋友, 就从这样挥手告别开始从各自生活里消失,也许今生无缘再见. 说完保重,我和JEN在2秒内相视无语.如果这是男女生,那保准产生个爱情故事.可惜不是.结果是眼泪模糊了我. 与我而言,JENNIFER只是一个开朗擅交际的女生.跟她接触并不很多.而且自从上学期KENNY同学扬言他要转学我连哭两天哭了个西里哗啦后,好象眼泪就流干净了,再也没什么可以刺激到我.像这样不争气,还真是头一次.

    昨天晚上看室友IZZY PACKING. 居然有点兴奋. 她说她最恨PACKING,我说我最恨考试和复习考试,不如我们换换.呵呵.还可以开着浅浅的玩笑.一会儿IZZY就要打包回家拉.可能一直抱着HOPE觉得大家还能到中国相见的原因,都不觉得这次的离别是永别,都不觉得只有5天是多么狭窄的时间. 不过我是一定会想念她的.是她把我从那个脾气古怪暴躁的黑人室友手里解救出来,虽然她背有点弯,耳朵有点背,睡觉打呼噜,还会大喊踢墙,不爱干净,可是她热心肠,KIND,需要的时候总是不惜提供帮助,宽容,明理,因为在BOOKSTORE工作还能帮我卖书(哈哈)希望在不远的冬天能在北京见到她!!

    时间好象是有点不够了. 还有好多事情要做:在学校里留影,跟PROF告别,SHOPPING,SIGHTSEEING...还有好多地方没有去玩:STATURE OF LIBRATY,BOSTON,HARVARD,MIT CAMPUS,CHICAGO,MIAMI,CARIBBEAN,YELLOWSTONE PARK....还有好多人没有见到,还有好多见识没有领悟到. 就要离开, 大家都问我们来美国以后收获到了什么.友谊是头等大事.熟练语言了解文化也水到渠成,自己突然间也成熟了许多,再也不是那个傻乎乎谁说什么都信的天真孩子.

     KENNY曾经问我在这场戏里,谁是主角.这小子不就希望答案是他?我就不告诉他他想要的答案.嘴上说,所有的人都是主演,心里在想好象确实也是他,像个小组长一样每天一有空就带我们到处玩.关于这个争议性人物的EVALUATION两极分化.不想多说他的好,因为不言自明,也不想多说他的坏,因为他也是人.综上所述,有了他,这一年的旅途变得无比多彩,也无比波澜.哎呀先不说了说起来没完了.我想回去把自己的BLOG和大家的整理出来编辑成书,再附上照片,那将是我们永远的青春纪念册. 还要把所有这里玩过地方的门票车票景点介绍等等搜集起来拼成一张大图挂在我房间正中央,每天对着它,生发无数想念.今天去弄TRANSCRIPT的时候,只ORDER了两份,问JASON才知道多多益善.我问,万一我来不了那ORDER那么多怎么办?他说,那就让花的这么多钱作动力,一想到就心疼,所以就一定要来啊.我说YEAH RIGHT,因为那么区区50BUCKS我都要拼命了......呵呵.

      晚上帮IZZY CHECK OUT.KENNY MITZ SCARLET那帮家伙就赖坐在我宣软的床上死活不肯动弹,我一个ROOMMATE能怎么样,只能帮忙喽.累的要命.房间空了,干净了,也恢复了原本的样子.还记得刚来的时候我的室友比其他人的室友CHECK IN的都晚,加上我又好客,(哈哈)所以我的房间成了大家的大本营,每天时间都是用聊天来KILL的.害我每天两点以后睡觉,估计晚睡的生物钟就是那么形成的,而且BLOG都没有时间写,压根没有私人空间和时间.倒也热闹.就这么熟悉了起来. 后来就一起玩翻了天,这辈子都没这么玩过.WEEKDAY上课累的剩半条命,WEEKEND过的比上课还忙....现在房间又半空了,大家又聚在我房间.不同的是,我在PACKING GOING HOME. 这群男生打打闹闹,开玩笑居然连在一起开成一片...先攻击我的衣服又在我打包的同时DISTROY帮我拆包,后来轮番攻击我和SCARLET...DAMN..受不了拉!!又是一个凌晨2点半,KENNY,KYUSANG,JASON,VIET,SCARLET回各自房间去了.原本热闹的房间突然变的冷清,东西还在这里洒了一地,喧哗过的痕迹还那么明显,只可惜已经人去楼空.5天,珍惜在一起的每一分每一秒....大家亲切的影子全部都印在我脑海中,是我难以忘却的记忆....(尤其是KENNY那淫荡的笑声,他刚走没多久,好象还回响耳边一样)

    

    

look into the sky look into the sea look at the horizon

想着爱想着下一刻的思念

when ur tender fingers

touch my silent face

plz don't confort me

otherwise my tears will be exposed

时间有限空间有限更叫人依恋

some kind of love is lingering cuz' it's endless...

let's make a wish together

no matter it will become true or not

however far we r

when thinking about it all the memories still seem vivid

中国海GOODBYE

亲吻的脸别移开

多想迈进你那深情的胸怀

海角天涯

手心握着你的爱

shouting in the deep heart "i will come back someday"

中国海GOODBYE

u r always on my mind

I still remember ur laughter was as white as the spoondrift

潮来潮往是我思念的节拍

当初的约定谁也不能更改

 

 

 

          FINAL到了,生活节奏骤然紧张,在路上遇到的大家,都是眼睛肿肿,脸色苍白,魂不守舍.我自然也不例外拉.连续熬了两天夜,每天只睡4,5 hr,到今天为止走路都像在飞,干什么事都迟钝钝的.心有余而力不足啊.在这里写一下MEMO了,省的忘:THURSDAY INVESTMENT FINAL. NEXT MONDAY FORECASTING PAPER DUE. NEXT WEDNESDAY MARKETING FINAL&investment takehome exam hand in. COLLECT MONEY FROM 3 PERSONS. CALL PROF FOR HELP. METERIAL. TRANSCRIPTION. help next yr exchange students and save the face of our school. i just wonder what i am living for. everyday busy for something i m not responsible for. Selfishly speaking, it's none of my business that whether next yr exchange students can come over. then why am i taking it so seriously and keeping it in mind to let it haunts me? mom said i m too kind-hearted. Among "to be nice, to be mean, not to be nice, and not to be mean", the third one is the easiest. to be nice is easily to be taking advantage of. Damn. what is my point.

          one of my secret readers sent me a message complaining i wrote too lito. ^O^since i was so busy for the last few days, i got no time for writing blog. i got no time for any shit. no pic pasting, no chatting until mid night, ignoring every possible thing. life was totally fukked up. well, luck to say, i wasn't absent for any chance of hanging out for fun. 5/3 thursday we went to NYIT to play free games. everybody was so lucky except me. they all hold bunch of toys no matter whether they r robbed from others, won by themselves, or stolen from the shelf, mixing with free gifts from NYIT. We should admit, we r robbers. we came from SUNY and went to NYIT play free game infinite times, and win toys as well as all the stuff they distributed. haha,that's so fun. 5/5 we went to six flags amusement park. so funny the thing was. kenny locked car with engine was running.....omg. i never expect he is such retarded. haha. we waited for almost 2 hrs for repairman break the door while kenny was sitting there alone depressly. finally repairman came, and kenny paid $67 because of his 2 mins' manual work.......that's the cost of one moment muddle....so expensive....so we met at 8am and left at 10am and arrived there almost 1:30pm. this tiny lito thing didn't annoy us(except our driver) we played so hard to let out the stress for final.....these roller-coasters r much greater than orlando Busch garden, i enjoyed the feeling of flying while other girls were like crying and insisting staying on the ground. feel pity for them. these roller coaster are like rockets with extreme high speed. wooden one, reverse one(batman), superman, and straigt angle one, and so on. I enjoyed them so much. the scarest moment is not on board, instead, it's waiting for it. actually it's only the idea in ur mind that scares urself. when i was in the orbit, i let it go and enjoyed the feeling, and i didn't feel scary at all. ha!i won the award of "today's bravest girl "haha! 5/7 monday. kenny was mad at night. he waited until we finished 10pm class, and persuaded us to go flushing with him. half an hr's driving only for Peking duck and lamb sticks. it's fun though. we ate the street food and chatted and laughed and enjoyed the bald-faced moment as if this moment will last forever and we will never be seperated.......final moment comes close, everybody understands the meaning of cherify and wanna spend every single day splendidly. "i don't wanna leave" doesn't make any sence just like u say "i don't wanna die" before u pass away. will or not the great memory fade away ?will or not the relationship weaken as time pass by? i choose to believe, because 相信,就会比较幸福.