看了宋甄奇(去美国另一所学校的交换生)的空间.去过的地方绝不少于我们.

    与我们唯一不同的是,她的日记里少了那么多人名......

    时常在想,没有那么多朋友的美国,是不是就太不一样了呢?

        turning into 21 yrs old, i m really an adult now. i can enter any club without any limitation.....at the same time, i need to carry on many new obligations on my shoulder in the adult world. find a big job, earn the big money, find a big guy who i can rely on...all these concerns, all my temporary mission...........

         forget these serious topics for a second, this 21st bithday is my happiest birthday so far. i m lucky and touched to own all u guys as my valuable treasure. it's kenny who set the alarm clock and woke up on time just for calling me at 12:00am.....after that call 蚊子 sent me a text message(although her bed was next to mine) said:"damn, i was about to greet u first while ur american firend rob the first place."...haha....sooooooo happy. this morning when i woke up, the first thing i noticed was the text message my mom sent me:"on the same day 21 yrs ago, i became the fortunest mother because the lord presented me a pretty, pure-hearted lito girl. all the memories which come along with all the 21 'todays' record how my babe grows up. today i can say, dear sweet heart, i m proud of u....i believe the god will make my dream come true, that is, i hope my daughter will lead a happy life, a healty body. best wishes and happi birthday!"dear mom and dad, it's u who gave me life, and i would like to try my best to make u happy and proud.......

          later on today, so many surprises were sent to me and let me realize i m such an important person in my dear firends' hearts. that's enough.

          thx 越鸿, i no u must spend plenty of time choosing all these pretty earrings;

          thx 美瑛&洪瑛, u guys made every effort just wanna surprise me. thank u for the whole morning hiding from me and spending mad money for that gift.......although we r no longer roommates, u guys r still my unique best friends.....

          thx 晓艳, thx for ur cute present, i love it a lot. and thank u especially for ur help when i was aboard & after i came back.......

          thx 大慧&cengyi, ur sleepwear makes me so sexy(haha);thx 蚊子, ur gift is the best wish suit for me right now(haha)thx 俊俊,卷卷, i also love ur lovely gift. u guys r so sweet. i m really lucky to share a room with u, and own u as my family members.

          thx summer, i no in the early morning tomorrow u will fly to hainan, while u still remember my birthday and treated me big dinner. i appreciate. u said, don't worry, it's my pleasure to celebrate ur birthday because we r friends. "we r friends"....we r not only like friends that simple. we v already became part of each other's life. we share the same experience;we have the same special feeling towards ny,america; when i face to u, i only feel familiar and relax, cuz we can talk to each other any topic without any hesitation, jealousy, or confusion....

           since i still couldn't forget that night in ny club.....although it's only a short time, i still can figure it out how high i was. in order to spend a memoriable adult birthday, i suggested going to dancing club at night. to my great surprise, i earned mad backup...these chicks all wanna go dancing and show their sexy body..haha. being 21 yr old, i m supposed do something different.  in a supervisor position, i was like a leader. i finally understand what the exact feeling kenny was always enjoying is. creat an idea, make a plan, collect information, organize members, predict the worst situation just in case, and stand all these criticize--should go or not, bring him or not... damn shit, i really feel like smacking on these bitches.as long as one said some discourage thinking, it would affect others' opinion.it's all depending on urself whether to do something or not ,so just make a quick decision, i v no time for all these bullshit. . omg, i m like half of "kenny" now......it's so pity i don't have any guys to bring with me. all the classmates or friends r mad ugly, or they r not that party type guys. other girls have some choices, but i don't no why they don't wanna bring these guys.finally we went there without any "bodyguards".fukkk........drink a lito bit, we arrived the club named "rock&roll".it looks really nice from outside and it's one of the most famous dancing club in beijing........when we entered, it seemed something was wrong. mad people were inside the dancing pool. looking close, they were all like 40 yrs old farmers or instruction workers........they don't even no how to dance, just rooted there moving their hands and heads......mad stupid....plus, i didn't get drunk so that i could see clearly their ugly faces.......so nasty.......since we didn't have any protection, we held each other's hand tightly in case we get lost.  when we danced in a round, outside our round there was already a bigger round of guys circled us.....i was so nervous since i should take care their safty even though they don't worry about by themselves. there was always a sick guy who went around us, put his dirty hands around my waist....i was gonna kick his ass with my 10 centimeter high heel shoes. all of these comparations made me miss ny even more. that night at lease we had 2 guys standing by whom i felt so safe and with whom we could dance with. especially kenny could lead us dance, and protect us. not like tonight, no guys with us, no handsome guys came close and dance with us.......i wish i could live with my eyes closed so that the only thing i can see is ny, all these guys i miss day and night and the happiest days in my life, so that nothing could wipe them from my eyes. right now, i hear cengyi's younger sister is calling her. cengyi said: "i miss u 2" with smile on her face. tears can't be held anymore and flush out my eyes. i wish i could be like her, calling them at any time i start missing them and telling them "i miss u" .........

Busy transferring my scores for 3 straight days, I m so exhausted right now….3 hot days I almost run through every corner of our campus looking for every related office. The result of all these effort is that I still need to make up for 6 courses in total. Although all the scores I got in America have been transferred, I still have to take these damn courses cuz they r freaking required!!! i m really pissed off. Dealing with all these bitches and assholes almost drove me crazy. I felt like my bargain skill has been improving after these days.

Except for this and the chaos in china, I m really in a good condition. Special among students, I feel like others are jealous of me. One yr unique experience I gained more than insight. What’s life, what’s friendship, how to deal with people, how to be brilliant using the knowledge I gained. I m like opening an eye in the deep heart. My life is enriched with all these friends and all these memories all of a sudden. People treat me in a way which I never expected before. I m not a self-centered person and don’t feel comfortable with all the people around me. Well, I admit I did enjoy the feeling right now. Celebrity and superstar, I m mad famous now. The first day I went to class, I introduced myself to the professor who never saw me before. Right after that, she invited me to say something about the life in America in front of class. It’s the first time in my life that I was nervous as well as excited and eager to do this speech. It’s the real idea coming out from my mind, without any modifier. I never no I m such talkative that I kept on talking for like an hour. People r mad curious about my interesting life in NY, and they have infinite questions. They treat me with respect. I got mad self-esteem and self-confident. My roommate kid me saying that I can be an English tutor: chat in English with them, correct their pronunciation and translate for them….even the staff working for our department publication asked me to write them an essay about the exchange life…….i can’t go back to be the normal person before. I’ve already opened my eyes. I can’t close them and pretend I didn’t open them and nothing happened. For my goal, however difficult it is, however long it takes, however stressful it is, I will never give up. Nothing gonna beat me down.