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11月19日 nice winter break begins!!!HURRAY!~This quarter is finished~ All the tasks are gone from me for these 1 and half months~~Gina is released!
 Glad that I m survived from this tough quarter. Everyday went so fast that I don't even have time to think. Even in my dreams, I was still doing the same thing--trying hard to finish paper, project& presentation, preparing for exams, reading, discussion.......blablabla.......Right now, I m free to do something that I really want to, such as, finding a job/internship!!!!!!!!
Actually, I applied for couple of positions on campus before, but they all said that it's a freeze period that they can't really hiring anyone. But luckily enough for me today, I got an interview from a department which just created several days ago and needs employees so much. So I got the job which is my very first job that pays money!!!! I will have my own SSN from now on and earn my own money for shopping!!!so excited@@@@
For the rest of my first day for break, I applied for the Enrollment letter in I-house in order to take the driving test, and tried the yummy burger in a bar&restaurant with my dear BUS 4610 teammates =) then we booked ticket to Hawaii. Although it's so close to the departure date, we still got it in a low price. Hawaii, here we come!!!!!!!!!
This will be a break with less fun than my last one in US for sure, however, a meaningful one!!
9月14日 none不开心.
以为自己到了美国,到了自己梦想中的这片土地, 就会有一种满足和欣慰.但是我过得真的不开心.
SOCIAL, DISCUSSION,学习,RELATIONSHIP....没有一件能让我开心起来.
每天都是千篇一律的BORING.没有内在驱动力,每天却都在强迫自己STUDY&FOCUS.一种从没有过的压抑和寂寞笼罩了我.
今晚大家都去为一个同学庆生,我推托了.实在不想让大家看到心情不好时候的我,也不想影响气氛.
自己在家做晚饭,发现糖罐里有只米蛾子,于是跟它大战半小时,终于战胜;上网查了菜谱,按部就班的做菜,结果酱油倒多了,做出来的菜很咸又黑乎乎的很恶心;做米饭的时候本来打算做成粥,可是后来发现水放得很是尴尬:做粥就少了,做饭就多了.结果做夹生了,也很恶心. 一个人坐在昏暗的灯光下,对着恶心的饭菜,眼泪就不由自主地流下来.开始就着眼泪吃饭,后来干脆大哭出声来.感觉舒服了些.
为什么老是觉得自己这么没用,什么都做不好,跟自己期望的情况背道而驰. 好沮丧............... 8月20日 8/7/08 in the host family before sleep today is a long long day. freaking exhausted! Since I got off the plane, my legs have been dropsy thx to the long walk everyday as well as the long driving, late sleep, and lots of conversations in English. Denver are not like NY, Long Island where there are lots of top class automobiles with cool guys driving inside.it's more like countryside in denver. Cars are like back to 80's. and on the street u can barely see some kid plays hip pop mad loud in his car~ppl here have higher education than those in NY, and they act more politely. But i just cound't understand why they are leading their lives not so enjoyable like the way New Yorkers do.Kinda depressed right now~
However we did enjoy is we met our lovely kind-hearted schoolmate. she and her bf showed us around a lito bit for applying bank account and buying cellphone service. This cellphone really helped us alot in apt finding. Usually u need to make phone calls with the manager of the apt u wanna rent and mostly the phone won't go through so u need to leave a voice mail to him. We almost walked all the denver area on foot. I was taking charge of making all the calls. When I almost gave up, it turned out to be a call went through and the manager was in the apt, and there was one 2-bedroom available. So we made our mind rite away. It's quiet, laundry room is just next door, the manager's office just faces to us and it's the first floor so the furniture is easier to go inside. The bad side is, it's a lito unformal compare to other apts: it has no electronic ringbells of the front door, it's dark during daytime and it looks like an inn instead of an apt from outside. ok stop complaining. 今天晚上另一个师姐带领我们参观了campus, du offers really great education. I m lucky to join it. DU is the top school around the colorado area. And daniels is one of the 8 oldest B schools in the whole america. 学姐很干练,值得学习.还了解到人际很重要!DU believes that 3 parts combine a successful businessman: english profincy, professional knowledge, as well as community communications. Ill try to keep these on mind and take adv of that.THINK BIG, PAY MORE EFFORT U WILL GET PAID! FIGHTING! 8/6/08 on the plane I thought I would be happy, when the plane took off and the land that fed me up was left behind until becoming a tiny lito spot, as my American dream has finally been fulfilled, like wat i dreamt thousand times. Well, I guess I was wrong. Something gloomy fills my heart, and something is gone inside my body. No tears, the feeling only gets worse. It used to be wat a firm insist that drove me coming back all the way from China. I finally realize wat I have been missing was not the land of America, but the exchange days we were together with a whole yr fun. As wat i was told, Denver is sunny almost all yr long. I can sense where I m going is a beautiful place with full of kind-hearted people, but it's just NOT NY, NOT Long Island and NO u guys.
Also, my dear, it's u that make me wanna stay even more!没有你的陪伴,我没有了勇气去实现最初的坚持.I really miss u. 8/6/08 on the plane 8月10日 arrived in denvefr8.6 me and Judy met our host mother after getting off the plane on Aug 6. Our host mother Loretta is a kind-hearted woman.she was wearing a wide edged sunhat with a sunglasses inside of the airport just to be recognized easily (actually it's also easy for everybody else to remember her
8.7 Denver is nothing like in NY. its ppl are all white, it has narrow streets with horrible traffics, it has not so many attractions, and ppl sleep at 10PM every night and get up no later than 7 or 8. majority's work begins at 8am and finished at 5pm. they like jazz or pop music with no f word or other dirty and insulting stuff inside the song and no black R&B music is around us.kinda sad. we met 2 current students. they showed us around and took care of us for like 2 hrs. those 2 kids got SIM cards. since i didn't bring my cell phone, i have to buy a one and get SIM then. after lunch time, a hard trip of hunting for apt began. the 2 kids coming with me are the first time arriving here whose english might not be as good. then communicating with americans became my duty. When we looked for house, however sadly, most of the managers of the apts were not there, and I had to voice mail them and wait for response and arrange a meeting when hope is there. we walked through almost the whole campus area and found nothing. When i almost gave up, we found one and sign the contract. after another deep and great sleep, the next day begins~
8.8 I got my cell phone and laptop with the help of a current student~she is cute and funny, she then showed us the cherry creek mall maybe pretty big in the denver area~it has every brand often to see in malls of ny, and i m satisfied with that~only no sopheria in that~and we tried Greek food in that mall~yummy!!!anyway, I had so much fun and bough so many essentials today!and we cooked chinese dishes for them at dinner time~they enjoyed it so much~i watched opening ceremony while eating~that's so coooooool~go go China!!!
8.9 2 days straight up busy settling down, i m mother fukking tired~so we just did laundry and chilling in the host family ~just sleep,eat.chat.cook.and eat. we cooked them chinese dinner again~better than yesterday~they enjoyed even more~so did we~so did the dogs~haha!wat a happy day!!!! 12月15日 随便乱写突然发现已经很久没有触碰这个空间,这个压缩了一年美国生活的空间.不想去碰,也太不敢接起来自大洋彼岸的电话,更没有勇气闯入新生的世界看看他们今年的美好生活.看了小VICTORIA的SPACE,竟无语凝噎.一瞬间,时空交错.
也罢也罢,已经经历过他们的生活,现在我有我这边的生活,对岸的朋友还记挂着我,担心的事情并没有发生,一切就都好了~~
10月28日 碎碎念希望老天眷顾 让我拣到上上签
规规矩矩不能逃课的下周快快过去 背题和被论文淹没的下下周期中考试快快过去 GMAT快快过去 GMAT所在的教学评估的一周快快过去 PS\RL\ESSAY\CV\\\\\\\\\\ 跟申请有关的都快快过去 离我远远的再不要回来
劳资忙完一定要闷头大睡一天 从头到脚在美容院放松一天 跟我的亲爱的们SHOPPING 两天 健身房狂蹦达一天 访亲走友到处豁棱别人蹭饭吃一天(大家小心呦) 啥也不干躺床上看杂志发呆一天 凑够一周完整结束劳资的ANIMAL生活
刚才还郁闷的想撞墙 这会想的我哈喇子都要出来了
阿Q疗法果然还是有效果地 大家OVERWHELMING的时候不妨试一试
我看着天堂的入口 有幸福在招手 我知道这条路难走 不能回头.... 9月30日 4 togetherJason小同学赴京赶考 顺便visit民大这一传说中地美女高校 出行还有仨美女做陪 这小子皇帝般滋润啊~~ 吃饭的描述统统省略.先去新中关看SHREK 3,倒是幼稚了点,可是10点PM后的新中关里没有了白天的拥挤喧嚣,夜晚的气氛沉降得刚刚好,俨然充满了GARDEN CITY MALL的味道.末场电影让整个剧场成了我们几人的天下.霸占了全场最中心的位置,舒坦的直想睡,却又不想浪费这样舒适的好时光.真希望那时的时间永远都不要醒来,这样年华就永远不会失效,我们的故事也永远就不会褪色. 再就是第二天的小豆+泡咖啡吧.坐在靠窗口的桌子,有微微的光隔了窗帘洒进来,听轻音乐,品西米露,随意翻杂志,有一搭没一搭的聊天,我们用一下午的时间来消磨,却不觉半点无聊.Stella说friendship是不就不过如此了,很久不见也不会觉得生疏,相处却不说话也不觉尴尬.I think so. 第三天下午JASON同学揣着本高中数学书就来自习,不时装模做样的划两笔,还问我关于正余弦的一个公式(可是思路都混乱了).看那家伙不时抬眼偷瞄美女的一副色狼相(而且还是很饥渴的那品种的色狼),忍不住劝他收敛点.他用一大堆借口搪塞,还义正言辞的.真整不了哇.后来SUMMER端她地Mac来照相,发现居然还有哈哈镜功能,遂采用.结果就是我发出了有生以来最发自肺腑的笑容+眼泪,而且笑几乎不能呼吸.因为旁边还有两人自习,我们四个都得收敛着点.可是照到后来实在是坚持不住了,一个个都捂着肚子笑到东倒西歪,几乎以喷的方式来发出笑的动作.旁边两人定力十足,巍然不动.只是看我们的眼神已经不能用责怪和怨恨形容,而是苦苦哀求(STELLA的版本是他们就一群人对着电脑不时摆出各种鬼脸然后笑到桌子底下的这种行为很不理解,于是表情纳闷多与责怪)anyway,直到今天看还是能让我笑到不行. 晚上JASON的MISSION是在我们四个聚到一起的时候给KENNY同学打电话.由于彼岸太早,KENNY还没起,于是我们在语音信箱留言.JASON说:hi kenny,this is Jason and Summer wanna talk to u.SUMMER PICKED UP THE PHONE AND SAID:"HI KENNY ,JASON HANDED THE PHONE TO ME AND I HAVE TO SAY SOMETHING TO U.HERE IS GINA." 由于之前被KENNY 小PISS了一下,我不想说话.summer 遂加上一句"gina doesn't wanna talk to u"递给STELLA.她正在通话,跟KENNY讲了句"HI JERK"传回JASON手里,JASON 遂说"OK ,BYE"挂断后大家疯狂大笑,边笑边PREDICT KENNY'S REACTION. 是时间分别了,谁提议拥抱告别.最痛恨离别,却偏偏让我们又遭遇一回.JASON这个家伙老实在GZ呆着多好,非跑这里来扰乱我们趋于平静的心情,然后又一溜烟跑回去,再不见踪影.我们都劝他保民大的研算拉,美女又多.lol.But it's time.TIME TO AY BYE.TIME FOR LIFE GOES ON. 夜里又做了个梦,还是我们四个一起.小插曲就不提了,总体来说还是能体现对这几天HAPPY TIME的怀念哒.曾经拥有,别无所求. 9月26日 about deathAll of a sudden I realize I m old
old enough to be scared of the pain brought by the mainline old enought to feel bitter when tasting the chinese traditional medicine old enought to feel desperate toward death. I ve been strongly impressed by a scene in <prison break>, in which Lincon dreamt that he was forced to sit in the chair earlier than deadline w/o any notice, and he was screaming, sweating and trembling like a lito injured beast,desperate. Covered with eyepatch and locked in the chair, he gave up the last hope that Scoldfield would get him out. I was like choked the moment when the executioner pulled the switch. Lucky it's just his dream. otherwise i would probablely pass out. Watching the movie<a life less possible> which in most parts there shows how great and touching love is, I was still shocked--a killer forced a guy to dig his own grave(although it's ironical, the guy had no choice)when the grave's almost done, the killer said"ok,it is time. U can stop" the guy cried "No..............."killer pushed him down the hole and pulled the gun towards him. this is so vivid for me, like i m experiencing exactly the same. A fever of 38.5~39 degree centigrade which lasted for 2 straight days made me such sensitive like a lito kid. I was worring about passing out at any minute. Long time ago when i was preparing for TOEFL i had a dream that I was dying. Still conscious &breathing but dying. The feeling is like u wanna grab something to resist gravity, but u will never. There ARE something u can't do in this world. Death is one of them. SO i m starting to worry about the health of my parents. They are working hard like no tomorrow just to earn money that pay my tuition. And i sent my bless through text message to my dear friends and remind them keep healthy. Finally I realize "Keep healthy" is no longer a mannerly word but meaningful instead. I don't wanna lose any of them cuz we share so much great memory. I m afraid I can't say no more about death, cuz i anticipate that somebody downstairs gonna throw eggs to me.lol. alrite. death is the end. the end for death. 8月27日 流水帐一则美美的做了一个海藻泥面膜。做花了15分钟，洗花了20分钟。
做完干干净净的。 真的耶，泥巴居然有传说中的神奇功效，黑头也不见了，皮肤嫩嫩的。 以后要经常做，美美的，心情也好好的~~~ 从老妈那里搞来一个U盘，偶然间发现它还是一个录音笔。这可对口语派上大用场拉！录了7段录音，发现自己录音英语的声音还满好听。 TOEFL进展不是很顺利，本以为简单的跟玩似的，却越学越不简单，尤其是得高分（目标100分）。做了两套模拟，阅读23分，听力22分，口语不太好，用GRADING SYSTEM那就是个B左右，作文也SO SO 的。不知道100有戏没。 前一个月分块复习时没打下好基础，说一个月背下单词的，计划总也实施不完。做READING和LISTENING时老图快，就想快点把那两本书做完，加上不了解IBT是怎样的，都先看着题来选答案。后来才知道IBT果然不是盖的，果然BT，没头没脑的上来就读或听，读完听完才能看问题。听力还要记笔记，都反应不过来哪有时间做笔记嘛。完全是瞬间反应。JASON同学说是因为听力不够好，反应不够快。好象是这么回事。可是能怎么办那？时间已经不多了。都说量变引起质变，质变就是所谓“顿悟”的感觉，掌握规律，看破玄机。很想体味一下那是什么滋味。 什么事情都需要动动脑子啊~~~不知我前20年怎么活的那么轻松。其实，活着并不容易啊~~~ |
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she didnt' care tho)after we got off from the airport, i noticed the sky of denver was quite clear exactly like that in my hometown.before I leave, i used to worry about the altitude sickness caused by the thin air in denver.But it seemed like nothing is different from plain area. she drove us to a food super market with 100% organic food inside. we were amaized by the various sorts of food inside~i ve never seen so many totally healthy food even in Long Island.then we drove back to the house where host family locates.on the carride, i checked out cars running on the street only to find that denver is like a countryside. automobiles are decades old. it's hard to see these series which are like out of producing even in my home town, .comparing with beijing, it's nothing, not even comparing with New York. kinda depressed, cuz it's totally my imagination about wat life will be like after coming back to US. But Loretta treated the 2 of us really good. she spent like 100 bucks for a special dinner tonight just for welcomming us~i no her family is not one of those rich type families, and felt sorry for bringing her so many troubles. after a big american dinner and a hot shower, i slept deeply until 7 in the morning the next day.
the biggest problem that bothers us a lot has finally been solved. loretta picked us up and drove us to a chinese restrauntant called chopstics. that's really delicious!!!!taste just like any restrauntant in beijing. we met another current student at dinner, and she showed us around the campus right after.the du campus is really amaizing and exciting!!i feel wordless when i explored it under the girl's guidance.it's so great atmosphere to inspire students studying in future~
i guess i ll never regret to choose DU this time~
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